Time Flies. Things Change. No. Really.
Well, I feel like a lot has hit me today; although reality could be it’s not so much.
Our preacher announced this morning that as of January 1, 2009 he will no longer be acting as our preacher and will be retiring. He’s an awesome guy, firmly grounded in the truth and I have not a few worries about who will we find to replace him. We have a wonderful thing going at the Katy church. Wonderful, solid men leading the congregation and I guess I just always expected it to be the way it is. But times are changing, people are growing up and life moves on.
Then I found my favorite cousin Chloe on Facebook and saw all her pictures. It’s been way too long since I’ve last seen her and she’s all grown up now… I hardly can recognize her. I promise it was only yesterday she was my cute little cousin who I’d get to see regularly enough.
Which leads me to think of all the other people I know and who are close to me, and to look over and back and see the direction their life has taken. Some good, many bad, some horrible. It’s sad and makes me anxious and I can physically feel my hard be heavy. I can’t work, I can’t eat; I can’t even watch a movie or play a game (but apparently I can blog). Are these the things God had in store for everyone? Our free will can take us to many places.
I’m so wrapped up with my own life, and everyone else is wrapped in theirs and then 10 years passes and I’m here and they’re there. It’s a flood of emotions that come with these thoughts. Who ever thought we’d make it this far? Remember just aching to get your driver’s license? Or to turn 18 to break that mark of being “under your parents”. Or never thinking college is something that you’ll ever get to? Or getting married?
I feel like so many of the things I’ve looked forward to have happened and I’m scarcely aware of it. Did it really happen THAT fast? Was it supposed to be that fast? Life really is so short. I feel like I have so much I want to do and not enough time to do it, and I’m only 25!
It is very depressing to see your friends go downhill. You feel like you know exactly how to fix their problems… only if they would listen to you. It is something that weighs very heavily on my heart when I think too much about it. I’ve gone through life being completely carefree, and so it’s hard to look at the lives of others when they’re having such a hard time.
It is amazing how fast time flies. And we’re still so young… imagine how we’ll be feeling when we’re 40!
To our credit, though, a lot has happened in such a short amount of time, which probably makes it feel a lot faster.
Just 2 years ago you had just met Pam, right? And look at you now.
Just 5 years ago (but, if you think about it, that’s half a decade!) I had just met Ryan… and now, wow. We’re married, he’s graduated with a BS in Engineering, he has a great job, we have a house and a baby (aka a family)… in all respects we’re “grown up”. I don’t feel grown up! When did I grow up?